30 August, 2004

It's so weird to be back in school... Today starts my second week, and it is really odd to be back. This year has been crazy already, it feels like I have been going for so long, which is true... I came back to school at the beginning of the month, and between planning, training, and retreats have been going non-stop. Now I'm just as busy as ever, but there are people all around.
Last night was a luau for upper classmen. I remember last year's luau. I barely knew any of my roommates, was just feeling my way along. One was trying to get me to wear a dress that was way to short on me... One of my favorite pictures was taken at the luau last year. It's hard for me to look back over the past year, so much has changed. My sophomore year almost seems like a string of seasonal relationships (you know the saying, friends come in a for a day, a season, or a lifetime.) The people I clung the closest to last year are gone, and I am almost having to start over. But last year made me stronger and I don't regret anything.
This year has been a whirlwind so far - I have gotten a position I fought very hard for, been through two major events (welcome weekend and training), feel like I have already learned a lot, and feel like I am closer now to being who I want to be than ever before. It's true, I miss a lot of my friendships from last year. I miss the accountability and the love that comes from people who see you dirty, messy, who you really are - and love you anyway. It's hard to be standing here without the friendships that held me for two years, and while I miss those girls so much, I see the possibility for growth without their safety around.
I dunno, just some random thoughts for your Monday morning.

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