16 December, 2003

"My heart was saying, "Lord, take away this longing, or give me that for which I long." The Lord was answering, "I must teach you to long for something better." -Elisabeth Elliot

So, yeah, not a lot going on here. Just trying to get through until Thursday then I am ready for a must needed break... There is so much going on and some of it I am okay recognizing and admitting, but the rest... well let's just say I'd be happier if they were not issues at the moment...

Elisabeth Elliot said something that has keep "haunting" me, if you will. And the more I think about it the more I realize that is how my heart needs to be, and that is how I need to consider what I ask God for... Who am I to say that I know what I need, or what is best for my life?

There is a lot going on right now... A lot of things like boys and school and “what in the heck am I doing in this world?” and some it is needless drama, and some of it are desires I feel should be satisfied - and other things.... Well that is why it's so hard to know.... There is so much uncertainty surrounded in just getting by day to day. It’s amazing. And yet, how often do we try to control it all? I wrote my cousin today and shouted that I just wanted a burning bush because there is too much going on I don’t understand…
Oh well... God is good and I in no way want to be in charge of things....
 
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